First Day, hoping for many more

I have been thinking about this day for a while. Oh there have been many times I have set dates, made plans to only drink on certain days, had cleansing months, etc. It all sounds silly but when something you have been doing for so long suddenly takes you down a different path no matter how bad it is, its hard to quit. Especially when it is such a huge part of your life.
I always felt that some day I would wake up and that would be it. I would be done.  Unfortunately I have had to wake up many mornings with the same plea to myself to stop. Well it wasn't just one morning but multiple lately that really made me realize something had to change.
Writing my profile was hard. I had to actually write the word Alcoholic. I've always know that I am but as a very refined social drinker I was able to make it through most of my life with it on the back burner.
With that said. I have decided to try and quit. I know you are saying to yourself "try". In the words of the mighty Jedi Master   “Do or do not... there is no try.” I agree. But after many years of  making promises to myself and others Try is what I'm willing to give right now. Here is my goal. I need to set a date, come up with a deterent plan, and keeping blogging. Because of my past failures I don't want to involve others. This is something I need to do and the road is going to be bumpy and I can't share that failure with others. I guess right now I'm giving myself an out. My first goal is to not use it.