I've been reading Mark Tuschel's Living Sober Sucks (living drunk sucks more). I can really relate to this book which is why I have chose Blogging as my means to an end. I feel like he is more of who I am. I have no desire to go to AA or other meetings. I don't feel like I belong. Yes we all have the same Social friend we are tyring to kick off the bus, but I am more of a DIY person. The argument can certainly be said "well if you don't need help from others then why haven't you stopped already". Because like Mark Tuschel, the only perosn who can stop entertaining your social friend is YOU. Anyway, Living Sober Sucks has really given me insight to the type of drunk I am. I felt like Mark's story is similiar to mine in the fact we both are high functioning Alcohlics. I also like his no nonsense approach. I'm an adult. I know what I am, I don't need kid gloves, signing songs of Kumbaya, and the society breakdown of "its a desease". He is the Dennis Leary of Sobriety, I love that. Please don't think I'm knocking AA and other programs. Individuals need to do what feels right for them. There is no one true diet....they are effective indvidually. I'm just thankful I found Mark Tuschel.
http://www.livingsobersucks.com/about_me
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
First Day, hoping for many more
I have been thinking about this day for a while. Oh there have been many times I have set dates, made plans to only drink on certain days, had cleansing months, etc. It all sounds silly but when something you have been doing for so long suddenly takes you down a different path no matter how bad it is, its hard to quit. Especially when it is such a huge part of your life.
I always felt that some day I would wake up and that would be it. I would be done. Unfortunately I have had to wake up many mornings with the same plea to myself to stop. Well it wasn't just one morning but multiple lately that really made me realize something had to change.
Writing my profile was hard. I had to actually write the word Alcoholic. I've always know that I am but as a very refined social drinker I was able to make it through most of my life with it on the back burner.
With that said. I have decided to try and quit. I know you are saying to yourself "try". In the words of the mighty Jedi Master
“Do or do not... there is no try.” I agree. But after many years of making promises to myself and others Try is what I'm willing to give right now. Here is my goal. I need to set a date, come up with a deterent plan, and keeping blogging. Because of my past failures I don't want to involve others. This is something I need to do and the road is going to be bumpy and I can't share that failure with others. I guess right now I'm giving myself an out. My first goal is to not use it.
I always felt that some day I would wake up and that would be it. I would be done. Unfortunately I have had to wake up many mornings with the same plea to myself to stop. Well it wasn't just one morning but multiple lately that really made me realize something had to change.
Writing my profile was hard. I had to actually write the word Alcoholic. I've always know that I am but as a very refined social drinker I was able to make it through most of my life with it on the back burner.
With that said. I have decided to try and quit. I know you are saying to yourself "try". In the words of the mighty Jedi Master
“Do or do not... there is no try.” I agree. But after many years of making promises to myself and others Try is what I'm willing to give right now. Here is my goal. I need to set a date, come up with a deterent plan, and keeping blogging. Because of my past failures I don't want to involve others. This is something I need to do and the road is going to be bumpy and I can't share that failure with others. I guess right now I'm giving myself an out. My first goal is to not use it.
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