It was a wonderful yesterday spent the afternoon with a great friend. We took the boys to the movies and we walked around the mall. I love they can go on their own and then we get some adult time. We laughed and shopped, ate a great lunch and walked around the mall.
So my husband came home in a not so great mood. He had a rough day and then the monitor he bought wasn't what he thought it was going to be. Although I think the frustration of trying to set up his new monitor was escalated as my son was practicing his trumpet in the same room. You could feel the tension down the hall with every missed note.
What I thought was great was how well my emotions stayed in check. Normally I would have had a bottle in me at that point, and the fact my hard working husband came home in a less the desirable mood would send me into a resentful and bitchy mood. Two people filled with emotion and frustration is never a good combination. But because I was sober and my patience in check I wasn't feeding myself with the negativity I had done for so many years. We ate dinner as a family, everyone got ready for bed and I finished putting away 3 loads of laundry. When he came in he felt bad and we talked about the day he had. I wish I could have made him feel better, but there are just days like that.
It was nice to have that shift in feelings. It doesn't give him an excuse to come home every night and be grumpy. But if he does, the fact that I'm in the a proper frame of mind to be the right partner for him helps both of us.
Ran 5 miles this morning. Tempo run with 3 miles at a hard and hilly pace. Legs were a bit sore from the work out yesterday. I am resolved to add the 2 days to strength training I said I was going to do in Jan. Slow to commit but I finally feel strong enough to start adding it.
The next two weeks are going to be high work load for me. I'm behind because I have procrastinated which is totally my fault. At least every morning I will wake up hangover free and able to work hard and my mind will be clear.
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