This morning I opened my inbox and discovered that Mark from The Clean Life has replied to a post and is now a follower. I didn't realize how much of a relief it was going to be. To have someone, who has gone through the same thing I am, to be reading my blog. It brought up so much emotion. My blog so far has been a diary in a way. It was fine to be private but as I continue through this process I knew I needed someone to listen. I have two wonderful friends who are helping me right now and will continue to help, but the rest I'm trying to keep private. While many may disagree, I don't want to explain to people the change in my behavior. I have said so many times "I'm done, I quit" to stop for a while and then fall back into old habits. My conviction to do this is strong but I want it to come from deep in my heart. Not because I don't want to loose face with the people I hang around. I don't want to talk about this with anyone who hasn't been through what I'm going through right now. With all that said I know I need to have someone, outside, unbias and unrelated to listen. I finally figured out that is the kind of accountability I am seeking.
I'm hoping that one day someone will read my blog and see what it is I have been going through and be able to change their life. Thank you Mark. For your kind words and support.
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