I have been doing a lot of research into habits, change etc. I find myself wanting a total overhaul. I want to start a rigorous training schedule, I want to declutter, I want to redo our financial picture and how we spend money.....it goes on and on. I know drinking has taken me down a dark path and caused me to stop doing a lot of things that I used to do. I know I have an addictive personality. I can never do anything half way, its all or nothing. To be successful I need to really focus on this one thing and believe the rest will come as I heal and change this one habit in my life. I want to have goals and something to help me focus on improving my life, but I find myself replacing one addiction with another. I want to overhaul my whole life next week.
I'm going to continue to work on my game plan and set better dates and time lines. I need to make sure I don't push myself to fast. I need to focus on the first change which is ridding my life of alcohol. Masking it will only keep it there hidden under the blanket of something else. Someday I will have to pull back the blanket and face what's underneath.
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