Absolutely love waking up. I feel great even for waking up at 5:00a. The things you tell yourself when you are drinking to stay drinking are amazing. With out drinking, you know you will feel better. You know you will get way more accomplished in a day. You will eat better, sleep better, take care of yourself and exercise. So why do you drink. Out of habit? Because you are addicted? Both?
It seems so silly that I put myself through years of torture so I could have 3 to 6 hours of mind dulling fun. Having been drinking for so long, the thought I can't have fun or enjoy a good meal without the perfect wine is what trained my brain into believing I must drink to enjoy life. I still have a long way to go to learn how to enjoy all the things I do sober. But now the silliness of needing to drink to make those moments special doesn't seem as important. Have I finally grown up?
Hello Michelle, Just checking to see how you are doing and I can see you are doing just fine, Good for you!! Yes you are growing up and sobering up more and more each day that passes. Before long all that poison will be out of your system forever.
ReplyDeleteAll the best!!
Mark